Hope

Running, running, running. There's no escape. You can't breathe. You start to panic. What do I do, you think to yourself. There is no hope, there is nothing. You crave freedom, sunlight, fresh air. But you're stuck in this miniature corner bursting with stench and failure, sobbing silently as you cling to yourself for some comfort that never comes. You start to pray to a God you never believed in, hoping he will forgive you for your neglect and ignorance. You curse when nothing happens--exactly what you expected. You scream to the heavens you realized aren't in the sky but in the arms of the lover you lost long ago. You have nothing. You become a pathetic ball of self-pity and deprecation. You pull out your gun covered in grime and blood of the fight fought before. You straighten your clothes and brush your tears away. This is all that's left for me, you tell yourself. Death; the only escape you can find in this dark hole. You cock the gun, readying yourself for what crime you will soon commit. Your hands shake and you sweat. As you slowly hold up the gun to your head, pressing it so gently against your skull, a strange peace overwhelms you. This is my destiny. You gingerly lay your finger on the trigger, but it slips off due to the sweat perspiring from your jittery hands. Can I really do this? Be this selfish and uncaring? Yes, you whisper to yourself. Yes you can. You hold the weapon tighter, setting your finger back onto the trigger that will soon lead to your demise. You take a deep breath and... Boom. Light spreads throughout the room and you drop your gun to shield your eyes. Someone, something, drags you out of this cornered cage and out into the light. You sob in relief, glancing up to see just a shadow beside the sunlight and trees. The shadow moves, kneeling down next to your torn, tattered body then you feel it's hand on your forehead, then neck, and wrist. It leans down farther, and you see the face of your lover, come back to save you from the hell they shoved you into you. You cry harder and grapple onto them, you hold on then slowly pull away as they come closer, leaning in to kiss you. You let them, feeling their soft lips on yours; you have your heaven back once more.